C.B: "When you make millions, can you buy us a house like that?"
K.R: "You keep saying "When I'm rich or make millions"…what makes you think that will happen?"
C.B: "Because its you….and the possibilities are endless with you. You can do anything you wanted."
Loving how sweet that is to say, it is also extremely intimidating. All my life, I've always been an idealist, optimistic to the max! Always had big dreams and a go-getter attitude. For the most part, things have fallen into place or worked out but now that I have a brand new life over here, I'm starting from scratch. I could do anything I wanted. In the past, I've done what I'm supposed to do; ensuring a backup plan to be safe. After going to school, I have a solid plan B. With that in mind…do I have a plan A? If I could do anything…now would be the time to start. I'm still young enough to experiment but just old enough where I need to get my foot in the door if I want to build a career.
Everything nowadays requires credentials and qualifications. I have one degree, good for one job. If I don't want to do that job, do I have to start all over? Sometimes I tend to get ahead of myself, I have to remind myself that I've only been here three weeks and things take time. First things first, get a mediocre 'right now' job and start from there. As much as I want to believe things will work out the way they're supposed to, it's hard for me to wait around for it…and waiting around isn't always a good thing. If I want something, I need to get out there and get it; be proactive and persistent.
I do believe that I could have a career in something I love, but I love a lot of things. It is time to narrow it down and take steps to make it happen. What do I want to do - - How do I do that? Where do I start? Who do I talk to? Does this town offer what I want? So many choices behind one simple question.
And with the bf I have, he is beyond supportive and would help me in any way I needed.
That being said - I think he needs to find something he loves to do as well. With his family's company, he probably feels the pressure to keep it running…doesn't mean he wants to do that for the rest of his life. How is that fair? Then again, it guarantees him a job and nowadays, that is rare. So what is he supposed to do?
I guess we figure it out, one day at a time.
UGH too many thoughts.